Letter to my UDC family

Last year was the worst in my life, I lost one baby, so the second, and the third, at the end of the year I lost my mom and the rest of my furry children.

I can not tell you how it is. I still can not believe and accept that terrible loss. We also lost a home that destroyed fire, but it's not as scary as tragedies of lost lives. Do not spend the day, but again and again we do not ask my husband and son and me, the only one we stayed, how did that happen? how is that possible ? What could we do to stop it ....... but there is no answer and it will never be.

I can not tell you how it is. I still can not believe and accept that terrible loss. We also lost a home that destroyed fire, but it's not as scary as tragedies of lost lives. Do not spend the day, but again and again we do not ask my husband and son and me, the only one we stayed, how did that happen? how is that possible ? What could we do to stop it ....... but there is no answer and it will never be.

People say that time will cure wounds, but they are not right, they remain forever, doctors say that it is necessary to go through several stages of grief and then recover, but they are not right. Some tragedies are too great to be understood at all.

Maybe someone wonders how in this situation they can come to the page. My answer is: I can come and I come every day because here my friends are my big internet family and this is great comfort in these difficult times. I can not watch the pictures of my angels because it hurts too much, but I need this page and the people I know here.

Thank you all for your prayers, your thoughts, your support. Thanks to everyone who gave the money, I know very well how hard it is to give money when you do not have enough for your own needs.

I do not know what to say this is such a big loss and I do not know how to survive. I fight with the feeling of guilt because I'm alive and they are dead. I just hope they are where they went, now all together and they can hear my remarks and know how much I love them.

I write with the help of the translator, so I hope there are not too many mistakes.

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